you know whats ironic.. the fact that ive had 6 people come to me asking for relationship advice and i have never been in a successful relationship :/

life has become weird... with all the aunties and frnds making me meet the girl they think is 'perfect' for me. i just find the whole process too weird :s but the fact of the matter remains i have to get engaged sooner or later.. and later isnt much of a choice right now.. im getting old.. and bald too :p so i better get comitted before i become one of them smileys on msn.. bald and yellow :/

no matter how hard the day is... it still passes and becomes yesterday...

i was going to write a big ass post.. but i dont see the point.. the crap never ends.

shouldnt a circular be printed on a circular paper, than a rectangular one :/

i dont talk much these days.. its just that i dont know what to talk abt. im almost always blank. i sucked at making small talks anyways, but now i just suck being in anyones company altogether... i dont share much of anything with anyone either. i have somewhat become the same person i was 10-12 years ago. seen n not heard.

when im home, im usually sitting in my room, or in the lounge watching tv. i dont talk to my parents, unless they do. i dont know i just have nothing to talk abt. its like half my brain is just shut down.

then there is the issue of me getting engaged. every freakn person i know wants me engaged asap :/ and to tell the truth, i think its about time i did. i need some change. i need something good in my life, to look forward to. coz quite frankly my life sucks.

OMG! girls actually iron their hair :o and i find ironing my clothes too much of a task :/

ok its one thing pigeons pooping on you when you walking... but pigeons precision pooping when im in the car.. that just proves the fact that the pigeons are out to get me :| be warned, pigeons have undergone a commando pooping training which enables to identify the targets even when not insight and land a poop on em inside the car *nods*

and then there are these sparrows... every morning they are fighting on my window over a straw or something with other sparrows chanting them on :/ its like a wrestling ring.. making noises like crazy making me wake up before my alarm goes off :/ or i might just be paranoid :/

Elevators... as much as they are a blessing, can be quite awkward of a place to be. like youre standing in a space of 4x4 with absolute strangers breathing on each other if the elevator is full.. with who knows what the other person is looking at. and its even more awkward if youre alone in the elevator with one other person. you look at him, he looks at you and both of you are thinking if he should say anything to the other person. you think of making small talk with him, then you bite your tongue thinking maybe you'll appear to be a total weirdo.

i had a meeting with telenor today, who very conveniently have their office on the top floor, so i took the elevator. i got in the elevator with another guy and a girl. the guy being in mid 40s stood there looking dead. like he didnt move at all, he was just standing there looking straight at me till the top floor. or maybe he was just too tired to blink :/ his stare was freaky enough to make anyone uncomfortable :/ and then there was this girl who kept blowing her bubble gum and poping it.. like come on :s its a good thing she got off on the middle floor else i would have choked her with her own bubble gum in the elevator :| well not really but thats how much she got on my nerves :/ i kept my distance with the freaky guy though :|

moral of the story? behave people! dont make the elevator anymore awkward experience then it already is! if youre weird, take the stairs :p

two weeks in hyderabad region in my line of work is more than enough to make one appreciate what bliss it is to be at home. to sleep in your own bed.. to sleep on a bed at all for that matter :/ i would write more, but my head is taking a nap. so i'll go take a nap too :/

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.

Somethings are simpler said than done. but the fact of the matter is, we need to face some harsh realities of life in order to move on. one might argue that in order to move on, opportunities need to present it self to move on to. but even though an opportunity does present itself, we are too caught up in the past that we just ignore it.

fortunate is a person who loves and is loved in return. life these days isnt all about love anymore. it would be plain dumb to take decisions on grounds of emotions only. the only way to move on is to think rationally and not emotionally. sometimes being ruthless is the only way out of a situation. but still the point remains true, some things are simpler said than done.

im in one of those moods where i would care less about anyone. yes i know its rude and i dont care. im just pissed and depressed and this country is getting shittier year by year. before i came here, i dont actually remember being depressed or pissed off this much. i dont see the point to plan anything anymore, coz it just keeps blowing in your face. everything i have ever planned ahead for, everything that i have wanted so much... i was screwed each time. whats the point.

If a man hasn't discovered something that he will die for, he isn't fit to live.

Jaali Adventures, Supermarket Stalker...

i dont really get much time during the week to do groceries and im too lazy to go on the weekend, so i decided to get em from the supermarket near my office on my way back home. Doing groceries in my neighbourhood is more like going to the general store and asking Iqbal uncle for the things i need. so i entered the supermarket and there was this girl standing there doing nothing but staring at people. so i thought may be shes bored or something. i went in and started browsing through the different shelves trying to remember what i was suppose to get. as i was looking at different brands of olive oil that same girl suddenly appears besides me and tells me not to buy that brand and recommends to buy the other one. im like.. ok and i moved on :/ as i started to walk to the other shelves that girl started to follow me. at first i thought maybe she needs something from there, but then it became clear that she was actually following me :| it turned out that she was a costumer support girl or something of the sort :/ after that wherever i went and whatever i touched she had something to say abt that thing and she would recommend either the most expensive or the most lamest of it :| at first it was kinda considerate of her to recommend, but then it was getting creepy. i even tried walking fast to the other shelves so i could lose her in the crowd or something, but there she was again and again :o she was stalking me! so basically her job was to stalk people and bud into everybody's shopping preferences. to derive the costumers nuts till they just buy what she wants you to buy and thus empty the stock that the administration wants to get rid of. it was like their evil plan to brain wash the costumers of their preferences and become zombies buying stuff that they want you to! :o evil people eeeevil!

how can someone shop knowing there is some person staring at you and everything your touching on the shelf and then giving their opinion abt every freakn thing :| its just creepy! so i kept getting stuff that i liked, the brand i use ignoring what she had to say abt it. in the end i came back to olive oil. so i picked a bottle and as i was putting it in my basket she said, app ko olive oil chahiay, i looked at her with a face saying duh! then she goes like app yeh wala lay rahay hain, i said haan olive oil chahiay aur yehi chahiay. then she says acha.. tou lay lain yeh :/ there were a few times when i came so close to tying her with duct tape and stuffing her in the freezer just so she would stop poking her nose in my shopping list :|

its not like im against customer support personnel, but there should be rule, a guide line given to them which strictly forbids them from talking to costumers unless spoken too and not become my mother giving her opinion abt everything i buy or want to buy :/ unless the supermarket administration wants to takeover the world starting by brainwashing the people and making them into senseless, mindless shopping zombies by the help of their supermarket stalkers! be afraid, be very afraid! *nods*

you need to know what you actually want inorder to move in a particular direction. life keeps taking you to cross roads where youre faced with the decision to take a particular way. there is actually no turning back after youve started in one direction. even if you could turn back.. the time lost along the way shall remain lost. andim just mumbling :/

Tare Zameen Par... a nice warm movie to watch :)

Jaali Adventures... Journey back home.

08:01
so the train is only 1.5 hours late :/ due to some major mix up at the admin side in the office we are forced to take a crappy train home or to do eid at Lahore :@

08:15
had an omelet and two slices of bread breakfast for rs 55/- and it was a chicken egg :/

11:11
freakn train is stopping at every possible station :| according to the scedule were are to reach khi by 01:30 but the way this train is moving that is very unlikely :/

11:32
my feet are warm again :D yes it is something to be happy about considering my feet were cold throughout the week :/

11:56
as soon as the train stops some weirdo gets in to sell something. And this train dining guy comes along every 10 minutes to sell tea. Its creepy how much tea he is willing to pour down people's belly :|

13:11
restrooms in a train are bad enough to leave you shitless for a week *nods* :| note to self... Restroom is not worth getting killed over nor leaving your self shitless untill you get over the after effects of the horrorific images that are scorched at the back of the head while in the enclosed space of 2x2 :|

19:30
me and my friend decided to take a stroll around the train and eat something on the 'resturant on wheels'. As cool as it sounds it was actually very crappy. Ive seen pathan hotels better than that :p so we ate and made our way to our seats. Upon reaching there we found a mid 40s guy sitting there talking on his cell and eating peanuts :/ i told the guy nicely that its my seat and want to sit there. The guy looks at me and says 'haan baith jao' i sat thinking that he would move after he hangs up. So he kept yapping on the phone for another 10 minutes. Finally he hung up. Then he looks at me and offers me peanuts. In like wtf :s and stared at him. He kept eating his peanuts, after a while he was out of peanuts. Finally now he would get up. But no :/ he started making small talk with me. My friend looks at me and goes like what is his problem. I asked him nicely that its my seat and if he would kindly get off it. He refused and goes like 'kya kar logay' :| i was about to punch him in the face but my friend interveiend and talked him off the seat. It turns out that the guy was actually the train driver or whatever its called in train-rank and he was just playing around to pass time :/ I swear i was so pissed at him.

20:32
train stopped at Rorhi/sukkur. My friend got off here. Now its 6 more hours to khi alone :( tomorrow is such a hectic day ahead :/ the force is on longer with me. Someone took the force and flushed it down the drain :/

01:32
khi is no where near and i was supposed to be in khi at this time :@

04:28
Karachi AHOOYY!! :D the train has reached the outskirts of khi...soon this nightmare will be over :/

05:33
home sweet home :D

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Jaali Adventures, Search for civilization...

We get off work, me and my friend, around 6ish after which there is nothing to do :/ the office and company residence is in area called Thokar Niaz Biag. Its like a total residential area. Civilization to me is like when i see shops and resturants around. So today me and my friend decide to embark on a holy mission to find civilization. Mysteriously there are no taxis in lahore..i havnt seen one yet :p after dark the whole area becomes creepy and quiet. We started walking to search for a rickshaw or a bus or something. We walked and walked and walked. Hell we walked alot untill we actually found a genuine bus stop..ALAS! A sign of civilization! We took a sigh of relief that yes people do actually live here and this area isnt just filled with endless houses and dead people :/ its quite cold here, it is to me atleast :/ after a while standing on the stop a bus came. A real life bus :D we boarded the bus and sat down. We didnt know where the bus was headed though. After inquiring from the conductor we found out that the bus wasnt headed anywhere..no where important atleast :/ kher we sat there for some 20 minutes.. It had to pass thru somewhere with shops and resturants..emphasis on resturants coz we were hungry and quite bored :/ we were looking keenly on both sides of the roads for some sign of civilization.. Just something.. Anything :| after some 40 minutes i saw lights... Could it be? Was it a figment of my imagination.. Was i going mad from all the cold? No it was.. It actually was civilization :D all with resturants and stuff. Immediately jumping off our seats we rushed to the door to get out. The conductor was standing there..coz thats his place.. We gave the poor dude a scare..he thought we were going to push him off the bus :p so we got off in an area called Icha Pul or something like that :s so we found civilization, had two different things to eat at two different resturants :D after walking around a bit we decided to get back. We found the stop for going back. A guy came to us and asked us if the bus would come this late :/ and it was only 10pm or so :| after like 10 minutes we saw a rickshaw coming our way... Not taking a chance that he wouldnt stop we stepped in the way so he had no choice but to stop :p we got in and went home freezing.

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07:59
i woke up a couple of mins back from the crackling sound of the nimco packet. This dude has been eating nimco for the past hour or so :| dont know how someone can eat all that nimco :/

08:05
peek-a-boo :o and the guy from the train resturant asks if we want breakfast :/ so had breakfast which was quite decent. And now staring outside at lush green fields :D

08:20
train stopped at kanpur or something and there is no GPRS available here so cant send this blog right now :/ back to staring outside the window :p

10:15
just had a talk with the boss in Lahore. company car will be waiting for me outside the train station. i still have no idea where the train is right now or when will it reach lahore :/ the family in the next compartment are awake, and so has the crying baby :/ like all he does is cry :/ The guy in my compartment is asleep again. damn he sleeps alot :|

13:23
ive been playing pacman 2 hours straight :D pacman on this cell is crappy though. it looks and plays well on my older cellphone :/ the train is supposed to reach lahore by 2pm... or so the schedule says :|

14:10
the dude's awake and i asked him how long will it take till we reach Lahore... he said by 4pm :| man this so sucks.

15:07
just got a call from the office. apparently there is no confirm time when the train will reach the station so they had to call the company car back coz there was alot of outdoor work pending and the car was urgently in need. now i have to make my own way to the office :( i will be reimbursed though :p

16:03
still no Lahore :| and the dude is asleep once again. not that there is anything else to do. its better he's asleep though, or else i would have to talk to him... which I dont want to :p

17:30
Lahore cantt :D wooohooo! finally. now its only a couple of minutes to Lahore train station.

18:05
there is no space on the platform at the station :| man this so sucks :@ been sitting here since last 15 minutes or so :/

20:03
at the Karachi station there are like radio cab and metro cab services, so i thought it would be same in Lahore as well.. after walking around for like 15 minutes and asking 5-6 people, who by the way had no idea what i was talking abt, i came to the conclusion that there is no radio cab or anything of the sort here... yes im so smart :p

so i got into the nearest rickshaw and told him where i wanted to go and i asked specifically asked him if knew that area and he was like.. maslaa hee koi nahi hay.. lay jaingay. the rickshaw started and got stuck in the traffic jam :/ after a while the traffic cleared and we were on our merry way. on the way i was looking at the direction boards and stuff.. then a board came for where i wanted to go and he didnt turn there :/ i was like.. bhai jaan pechay murna tha.. and he was like.. oh acha. so he missed the turn and we had to take a u-turn from the next signal :S after that he missed the freaking turn again :| i was like bhai kiya hua kyun nahi mur rahay.. he said.. bhai app ko bhi sahee maloom nahi hay kaha jana hay. i was like.. dude look at the freakn board.. how more clear could it be. i directed him the way turn by turn... and i dont even live here :p kher finally reached the office and from there to the company residence. from my house in Karachi to the Residence in Lahore it took some 24 hrs.

Edited: 14.12.07