Random Thoughts...: 08/01/2004 - 09/01/2004


Tuesday, August 31, 2004

i feel like crap, both physically and mentally.. :) and i keep telling my self, its all gona pass by, one day i will turn back and laugh at it all... either that or death will become me before these days go by :)

Saturday, August 21, 2004

as soon as u think its all past now. uve moved on, something outa the blue slaps u back. guess happy ending isnt meant for all characters...

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

note to self: never sit idle.. never.. :
cant always be doin something.. now can i.. insaan hoon may bhi.. kiya kiya jaiy ?
either this coffee aint real, or i cant get high anymore :/

kiya hoga mera?

Friday, August 13, 2004

how do u know if this isnt the real me? i wish i cud turn off my thoughts. i wish i cud change the past. i wish i had a aim. i wish i had answer to simplest of questions. i wish i had all that, that was supposedly mine. if wishes were to come true, then they wudnt be wished wud they... that wud be wat we call fate.. getting wat is urs.

hazaro may tanhaiy ka alam?

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

ello bloggy.... atleast i cant hurt u or piss u off :) i shudnt had replied :( i'm a bad person. taking out something that wasnt intended for anyone at all. saying sorry doesnt cut it, does it?

lol i cant even get high anymore... or watever that feeling was. kehtay hain jo ziyada hasta hay woh rota bhi ziyada hay.. hasna tou ho gaya.. dil say na sahee.. magar hasee tou hay na. now all i need r tears. just something inside that needs to be set free.

searching for a face that doesnt exist anymore, atleast not for me... everytime i see her, i break to pieces and still i have a smile on my face. during the day, its jojo the jester... have i any other choice?

some simple questions:
Q1- whos my role model
ans- no one

Q2- wats my aim in life
ans- dont know

Q3- have i made a difference in anyones life
ans- no

Q4- number ppl died after wat i said
ans- 1

Q5- will i ever become 'asli'
ans- the day i die

wana curse something so that it never happens.. contact me n i'll pray for it, hotay huay bhi nahi hoga :) koi kuch dua karnay ko kehta hay.. i just try to forget abt it. kyoun kisi ki qismat ko thokar maroon.

i wish i cud leave khi. i wish this life wud just end....