i was going to write a big ass post.. but i dont see the point.. the crap never ends.

shouldnt a circular be printed on a circular paper, than a rectangular one :/

i dont talk much these days.. its just that i dont know what to talk abt. im almost always blank. i sucked at making small talks anyways, but now i just suck being in anyones company altogether... i dont share much of anything with anyone either. i have somewhat become the same person i was 10-12 years ago. seen n not heard.

when im home, im usually sitting in my room, or in the lounge watching tv. i dont talk to my parents, unless they do. i dont know i just have nothing to talk abt. its like half my brain is just shut down.

then there is the issue of me getting engaged. every freakn person i know wants me engaged asap :/ and to tell the truth, i think its about time i did. i need some change. i need something good in my life, to look forward to. coz quite frankly my life sucks.

OMG! girls actually iron their hair :o and i find ironing my clothes too much of a task :/

ok its one thing pigeons pooping on you when you walking... but pigeons precision pooping when im in the car.. that just proves the fact that the pigeons are out to get me :| be warned, pigeons have undergone a commando pooping training which enables to identify the targets even when not insight and land a poop on em inside the car *nods*

and then there are these sparrows... every morning they are fighting on my window over a straw or something with other sparrows chanting them on :/ its like a wrestling ring.. making noises like crazy making me wake up before my alarm goes off :/ or i might just be paranoid :/

Elevators... as much as they are a blessing, can be quite awkward of a place to be. like youre standing in a space of 4x4 with absolute strangers breathing on each other if the elevator is full.. with who knows what the other person is looking at. and its even more awkward if youre alone in the elevator with one other person. you look at him, he looks at you and both of you are thinking if he should say anything to the other person. you think of making small talk with him, then you bite your tongue thinking maybe you'll appear to be a total weirdo.

i had a meeting with telenor today, who very conveniently have their office on the top floor, so i took the elevator. i got in the elevator with another guy and a girl. the guy being in mid 40s stood there looking dead. like he didnt move at all, he was just standing there looking straight at me till the top floor. or maybe he was just too tired to blink :/ his stare was freaky enough to make anyone uncomfortable :/ and then there was this girl who kept blowing her bubble gum and poping it.. like come on :s its a good thing she got off on the middle floor else i would have choked her with her own bubble gum in the elevator :| well not really but thats how much she got on my nerves :/ i kept my distance with the freaky guy though :|

moral of the story? behave people! dont make the elevator anymore awkward experience then it already is! if youre weird, take the stairs :p

two weeks in hyderabad region in my line of work is more than enough to make one appreciate what bliss it is to be at home. to sleep in your own bed.. to sleep on a bed at all for that matter :/ i would write more, but my head is taking a nap. so i'll go take a nap too :/

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.

Somethings are simpler said than done. but the fact of the matter is, we need to face some harsh realities of life in order to move on. one might argue that in order to move on, opportunities need to present it self to move on to. but even though an opportunity does present itself, we are too caught up in the past that we just ignore it.

fortunate is a person who loves and is loved in return. life these days isnt all about love anymore. it would be plain dumb to take decisions on grounds of emotions only. the only way to move on is to think rationally and not emotionally. sometimes being ruthless is the only way out of a situation. but still the point remains true, some things are simpler said than done.

im in one of those moods where i would care less about anyone. yes i know its rude and i dont care. im just pissed and depressed and this country is getting shittier year by year. before i came here, i dont actually remember being depressed or pissed off this much. i dont see the point to plan anything anymore, coz it just keeps blowing in your face. everything i have ever planned ahead for, everything that i have wanted so much... i was screwed each time. whats the point.

If a man hasn't discovered something that he will die for, he isn't fit to live.

Jaali Adventures, Supermarket Stalker...

i dont really get much time during the week to do groceries and im too lazy to go on the weekend, so i decided to get em from the supermarket near my office on my way back home. Doing groceries in my neighbourhood is more like going to the general store and asking Iqbal uncle for the things i need. so i entered the supermarket and there was this girl standing there doing nothing but staring at people. so i thought may be shes bored or something. i went in and started browsing through the different shelves trying to remember what i was suppose to get. as i was looking at different brands of olive oil that same girl suddenly appears besides me and tells me not to buy that brand and recommends to buy the other one. im like.. ok and i moved on :/ as i started to walk to the other shelves that girl started to follow me. at first i thought maybe she needs something from there, but then it became clear that she was actually following me :| it turned out that she was a costumer support girl or something of the sort :/ after that wherever i went and whatever i touched she had something to say abt that thing and she would recommend either the most expensive or the most lamest of it :| at first it was kinda considerate of her to recommend, but then it was getting creepy. i even tried walking fast to the other shelves so i could lose her in the crowd or something, but there she was again and again :o she was stalking me! so basically her job was to stalk people and bud into everybody's shopping preferences. to derive the costumers nuts till they just buy what she wants you to buy and thus empty the stock that the administration wants to get rid of. it was like their evil plan to brain wash the costumers of their preferences and become zombies buying stuff that they want you to! :o evil people eeeevil!

how can someone shop knowing there is some person staring at you and everything your touching on the shelf and then giving their opinion abt every freakn thing :| its just creepy! so i kept getting stuff that i liked, the brand i use ignoring what she had to say abt it. in the end i came back to olive oil. so i picked a bottle and as i was putting it in my basket she said, app ko olive oil chahiay, i looked at her with a face saying duh! then she goes like app yeh wala lay rahay hain, i said haan olive oil chahiay aur yehi chahiay. then she says acha.. tou lay lain yeh :/ there were a few times when i came so close to tying her with duct tape and stuffing her in the freezer just so she would stop poking her nose in my shopping list :|

its not like im against customer support personnel, but there should be rule, a guide line given to them which strictly forbids them from talking to costumers unless spoken too and not become my mother giving her opinion abt everything i buy or want to buy :/ unless the supermarket administration wants to takeover the world starting by brainwashing the people and making them into senseless, mindless shopping zombies by the help of their supermarket stalkers! be afraid, be very afraid! *nods*

you need to know what you actually want inorder to move in a particular direction. life keeps taking you to cross roads where youre faced with the decision to take a particular way. there is actually no turning back after youve started in one direction. even if you could turn back.. the time lost along the way shall remain lost. andim just mumbling :/

Tare Zameen Par... a nice warm movie to watch :)