Ive realised that, the only way I can get these thoughts to stop are to write them somewhere. It doesnt matter if I keep what i wrote somewhere or not. it was just getting em off the mind.. making em stop. so people say its good to think. but to think of something that wont ever happen, or something that isnt actually 'sane' is.. well just a waste of time and energy.

so keeping 'off' hasnt actually helped. though ive been off the longest ever since i first came online. but the real question is what was i thinking of accomplishing by it? what is it that i so want to happen? is being random the only way?

kiya hay meray paas? kuch nahi....