it hurts. it just hurts inside to look at someone and know his plans wont work out. even if everything around indicates the contrary, you have this gut feeling it wont. im not much proud about what i have, this gut feeling thingy. but i have it nonetheless. i can curse any situation.. just like that :/ might be coincidences.. but there have been far too many. kher.. i dont know how to write what i'm feeling right now. i'm never good with words :/

i havent found a job yet. its been 3 months now. and its not just me. almost everyone is just sitting around. there are no fucking jobs. well there are jobs but they dont offer them on 'merit'. i dont wana start that... its just depressing.

im just bored. JUST GOD DAMNED BORED! :|