never was into writing diary n stuff.. but wat they hey.. always a first time for everyhting.. have a test tomorrow.. dont feel like preparing for it... from rock bands to slow songs, wat am i listening to? am in pain? am i lost? didnt have anything to begin with, or did i but never saw it. confusion... ppl say i confuse them, but isnt it me who is confused? playing with a human mind can be fun but playing with emotions thats just plain cruel.

memories.. cant we just wipe the ones we dont want n keep wat we want.. lost in these memories.. argh! wat do i look for in those faces? wat isnt the real question.. its who.. who am i looking for.. y do i run away from em when i want em so much. running away from my self, running away from reality, may be thats y i talk weird... insane at time. the only way i can break thru those thoughts n not think at all. but do i? can i? most ppl thnk am stupid.. dont thnk.. dont care abt things..

ppl came.. they talked... they felt good tlaking to me.. then yd they leave? was it me.. was it them.. was i that much of a pest.. was i too insane? dont know.. dont care.. or do i?