Tuesday, March 09, 2004

cofffeee.. cheersss!!
midterms aint goin that well. most of the study time.. am listening to songs or just staring at the books.. or notes.. or just the table.. or just sitting in the dark with the table lamp off. i like darkness.. black and red.. these two appeal me the most..

and when i thought i was goin backl to normal.. am fucked up again :S every freaking thing around me is getting messed up.

"abey kiya majnu ki tarah ghoom raha hay" "abhi tang na kar... may gham may hoon" n then they all laugh.. said this line alot of time.. never meant a single word of it.. and when i did mean it.. well not exactly gham but somehting like that.. they all luagh.. cant blame em for it. its me who made this a joke. yeah me the joker.. fuckn fake.. always trying to make ppl laugh.. who the fuck am i? always trying to get to the bottom of others problems.. getting other's life in order.. look at ur own life u big fake. if u were that much of a problem solver, she wud had never slit her wrist! "yaar teri kiya ghalti hay, konsa tu kuch kar laita" nahi karta.. try bhi kyun kee mainay.. y did i poke my nose into someone elses matter.. so i knew her from the net.. so wat.. wat exactly did u know abt her.. wat exactly do u know abt anyone in ur list.. never bothered to even ask their second name.

"dosro ki tarah kabhi tum nay kyun pic ka poocha.. ya phir number ka" (fama) konsa teer mar loonga yeh sab pooch kar. online baat karta nahi dhang kee.. phone par baat karona.. kar hee na loon baat :S

tears that i have seen in the eyes of whom i love... wish i cud shed some to get in the club.

i dont remember a single moment when i was truly happy.. not that ive lead a pathetic sad life.. but still i cant remember any of it. and wat i wana forget.. i cant :S

someday am gona read all this.. and laugh. if i live that long. still dont know wats on my skin :s

coffee over.. i wish i cud have more.. but then again dont wana get high...

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